Who am I? It’s the question isn’t it? The one everyone asks? The one we can never quite answer because the answer is always changing? I used to think I was ice, all my pieces frozen in stasis. Children change the most yet believe they are solid, whole, immovable. I found myself on back roads driving […]
You told me once how you couldn’t imagine anyone believing in you the way I do, that my words didn’t make sense with your own perception of yourself. I shook my head at these insecurities that I found silly, unfounded. Of all the people revolving around my world, I see you purely, beautifully. But tonight […]
Burn. Blaze like a phoenix igniting the ashes of a night burned to oblivion. We are flames only extinguished by doubt and hopelessness so torch this fear of what we might be and burn brightly enough to douse defeat in the fires of what we could be if we can only see through smoke.
Green glasses clink and whispers float on alcoholic lips and we say happy like it’s a possibility. Snow falls under sunny skies and pieces of you chip away under the defrost of a spring aching to come. Your footsteps echo upstairs in rooms you will never enter and the carpet gathers dust from walkers who […]
Emotions are deep, primal, lingering. They bleed bright instead of gray, crimson pain scratched into your arms. Yet what is living if not with emotion? I loved you and it still lingers inside my bones, clings to the inside of my ribcage. And it’s worth this agony, this thirst that consumes, because loving you built […]
What you said: I was in a bad way and I’m sorry for being such a prick but I just didn’t really think about myself the way you did and those words meant a lot and I’ll never take you for granted again. I never forgot about you…not for a minute. What I heard: I […]
I feel like screaming. I can’t keep this agony inside much longer. I just keep stuffing it down like shoving blankets into a tiny cupboard. I slam the door but it keeps popping open, spraying clouds of covers everywhere.
“Take a picture,” he said, the white tassle of the Santa hat dangling in his eyes. I stared, not wanting him to see the desire hiding beneath my skin. His muscles tensed turning his tattoos into even more grotesque images of skulls and goblins, but I had always thought those pictures beautiful because they lived […]
One more tick tock one more merry-go-round one more upswing and one more down. It’s the end and the beginning again but my time stays linear starting and ending with the want of you here we go with resolutions and deals and mine is always to forget about you so I sit in front of […]
I wonder if you’re left-handed and then I keep thinking this is something I should know but I don’t remember ever seeing you write. How can I love someone and not know what hand they favor? That seems absurd but nonetheless, my breath catches on the words left unsaid, those lingering moments of ephemeral completeness […]