Normal

My normal has disappeared. My brain has betrayed me. I wonder if this is how my dad felt, if this is how it started for him. Little tremors, moments of forgetting, stumbling, stuttering, failing. I can no longer get excited or feel afraid which is ironic considering I’m an anxiety-ridden mess. And people talk to […]

Vacancies

Even in the darkness, I am yours. When we are lost, wandering roads cobbled in vacant thoughts, frozen moments, when we are alone, warmth receding from our needy grasps, even then, I am yours. In shadows and fog, in corners and fields, when nothing persists beyond sadness and gloom, I am yours. These dreams you […]

Lost

Pricks and pinches, slices and sores. I’m full of empty unless you count pain. I’ve enough of that to spread around. Holes and hideouts, deserts and dungeons. I’m lost among familiars, their faces poking into a reality empty of full. Shattered and shaken, busted and broken. I’m a mirror in pieces on a dirty floor, […]

It Never Stops

Buzzing, a hammering in my brain but deeper. Shaking, twisting around my insides, and I just need it to stop. I scream for it to stop. “You did nothing wrong!” “Everything’s fine!” But it screams right back in my face and I somehow know it’s right. I’m waiting for the basket to get too full, […]