Surrender

“Desire becomes surrender. Surrender becomes power.” Joker, Suicide Squad It’s madness, this desire, these thoughts of giving in, giving up all control, submitting to you in ways no one understands. I want to surrender, burn under your grasp, your chains, the binds that twist on my wrists. Relinquish my fear, be yours, show you I […]

Dancing: A Conversation in My Head 

“I love this song.” “It’s a good one.” “You should dance with me.” “That’s not what we do.” “I know. But, so what?” “It might change things for you in ways that are dangerous.” “I know, but anything with you is.” “True. But you know my thoughts on us moving past our agreed upon relationship.” […]

Zero

What am I supposed to do? It’s fucked. The whole thing. You want black and white, and give me only gray, yet I’m to choose. This or that. All or nothing. And I want all, but fear bites at my heels and you provide zero comfort. Your idea of reassurance is silence, and anxiety suffocates […]

Return: A Conversation in My Head 

“Why are you back?” “What do you mean? I never left.” “Yes, you did. You left that day in the hotel. You said it was done. Never again. I’m pretty sure those were your exact words.” “Things change.” “That’s a non-answer.” “Fair enough.” “I fucking hate when you say that.” “I know.” “So, tell me […]

Ground

I am spinning. On a rocket-fueled gust of hurricane winds, I’m tumbling, plummeting on icy waves of a perfect storm. The handholds are fog, the saviors, smoke, and the ground grows close, so close that I can smell my blood in the grass, my bones mixed with dirt. Rescue me. Someone. Save me from myself. […]

Craving

The sand burns beneath my feet, my bones ache from trudging centuries without rest, and I am still hungry for the pain, for the agony I feel when I reach for you. It is my beacon amongst these vast places I traverse in search of your hands, your skin against mine, our mouths locked and […]