Stupid Things: A List

I keep thinking about stupid things like: throwing my laundry in and regretting washing your scent from the clothes I wore last time we touched; how I haven’t yet washed all of them so I can remember any trace of you that remains; wondering when I’ll have showered enough to no longer feel your fingerprints […]

Separation

We sit in separate rooms, living separate lives, never realizing we’ve become shadows of us, ghosts of who we were when we were young, brazen, hopeful. How do you save something that never truly existed? Something that was only ever imagined, never real, only wants and desires, needs plastered on paper walls, dreams transformed into […]

Unsafe

The danger dances on my tongue. I can feel its liquid steps walking, stomping on my will, carousing with the butterflies in my belly, and I wonder if it’s always felt this way, if the craving always feels unsafe, warm but unknown, sweet but terrifying. Torture waltzes through my blood, and I realize it’s just […]

Frozen

Sometimes I am an ocean, calm, turbulent, unpredictable, and I can’t write, can’t speak, because I want that free, that epic frozen moment you relive each time you close your eyes. Months, years, decades later you can still feel his hands, the way you tremble when his lips finally land on your skin but it’s […]