It’s not about commitment or love or even attraction. It’s about simply feeling something. When he puts his hands on me, his mouth against my skin, he makes me feel because I don’t anymore. I feel anxious and sad and scared, but that’s it. I walk around in those three modes and exist. But when […]
Write something. Anything. Just get the thoughts out. Spill them onto these blank screens and plaster the world with your faulty words, your flawed ideas that hold together each breath, each step because without them, you are empty. Without them, you are lost among forests of stories sprouting up through dirty lines of mishmashed text, […]
Stasis. This frozen space where I can’t move forward but I know I can’t stay here. Every day for fifteen years. Suspended, I hang above my body watching, waiting for the moment of escape, the moment I’ll know it’s time to take back over, to get on that bus again, and go. Where? Who knows? […]
Pain ripples through my bones, sends aftershocks trembling over my skin, and I don’t know where it comes from. I vibrate with hot breaths, flying fast from lungs that don’t feel like mine, while flames rip their way out of my eyes, and the air thickens, pollutes my mouth, yet I gasp for it because […]
How do you live with someone for 15 years and they still don’t seem to notice you? Like, they see you, talk to you, touch you occasionally, but they don’t actually see you. When they look at you, it’s as if you were everything, but they don’t actually know you, the real you, the pieces […]
I don’t want to forget the taste of your tongue against mine. I want to remember your rough cheek, your hard hands as they carry me backwards to your bed. I want to visualize your head on my lap, my fingers in your hair, and I know it’s all just imaginary, just fantastic moments where […]
I have these weird moments where I try to reconcile who I am now with who I was in the past. Like…I’m trying to find her in me or me in her…if that makes sense. I do the same thing with other people too. Like you. I didn’t really know you then, only my perception […]
We yearn in quiet rooms filled with wild voices, familiarity staring back while loneliness winds it’s way around our roots. Smiles remain real, as in genuine, as in true, yet sad eyes, those gray blue patches of sorrow hidden beneath echo back, scream my name as if I’m the only real piece of the world […]
You sort of know when it’s over, when anything is, really. Time warps for the slightest instant, and poof, you know. Like the sound of your voice that last time on the phone, the shudder that said what your mouth couldn’t. Or the way his messages seem to become shorter, less frequent. The way I […]
Why do I have to feel so much? Want so much? I just end up eviscerating everyone, tearing out their insides, and devouring them like candy, and I wonder how anyone could still want me. But they do. So many love me, want me, desire me, need me, and all I am is dust and […]
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Get Your Keys, Grab Your Coat.
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