Silence: A Conversation in My Head

“I can’t stop thinking about you.” “Why?” “I don’t know. I think it’s your eyes. And your silence.” “My silence?” “Yeah. Like what’s underneath it.” “Nothing.” “Stop.” “Make me.” “When you say that, all I want to do is kiss you. Your neck, that corner of your jaw, your soft mouth when it turns hard […]

Crisis

Suffer, bleed, weep until sanity seems distant, fractured, beyond. Suffer, scream until it’s over, until I am no more. Arrows, wooden stakes made from splintered words, they gouge out my heart in inch-sized pieces until I am only shadows, miniature versions of those pictures you have in your room, hidden in boxes behind walls of […]

Yes

Air, so much air, and breathing, the weight vanishing, its suddenness– a gasp, bright, ferocious, the freedom and peace, they descend, hover, collide, sweep me in blooms of oceans and vast forests of beautiful echoes. One word, no three, or four, but they released me, pegged me, folded me until I floated. Yes. I breathed […]

Dancing: A Conversation in My Head 

“I love this song.” “It’s a good one.” “You should dance with me.” “That’s not what we do.” “I know. But, so what?” “It might change things for you in ways that are dangerous.” “I know, but anything with you is.” “True. But you know my thoughts on us moving past our agreed upon relationship.” […]

Zero

What am I supposed to do? It’s fucked. The whole thing. You want black and white, and give me only gray, yet I’m to choose. This or that. All or nothing. And I want all, but fear bites at my heels and you provide zero comfort. Your idea of reassurance is silence, and anxiety suffocates […]