Sleep Kisses

You kissed my shoulder in the middle of the night when you thought me asleep. Before you turned away to rest, your lips brushed my skin, you squeezed my arm. I don’t know why that kiss matters, why those moments with my cheek pressed against your chest keep spinning around me, wrapping me in memories […]

Air and Fireplaces

We yearn in quiet rooms filled with wild voices, familiarity staring back while loneliness winds it’s way around our roots. Smiles remain real, as in genuine, as in true, yet sad eyes, those gray blue patches of sorrow hidden beneath echo back, scream my name as if I’m the only real piece of the world […]

Do We Know?

You sort of know when it’s over, when anything is, really. Time warps for the slightest instant, and poof, you know. Like the sound of your voice that last time on the phone, the shudder that said what your mouth couldn’t. Or the way his messages seem to become shorter, less frequent. The way I […]

Beautiful Nightmares

I have these nightmares disguised as dreams where we are cooking dinner together, music playing, loud, and your laugh fills me up each time it rings out; we dance and eat and make love until we are blurry and exhausted. Or where we are driving up some country road lit with dappled sunlight falling through […]

Stupid Things: A List

I keep thinking about stupid things like: throwing my laundry in and regretting washing your scent from the clothes I wore last time we touched; how I haven’t yet washed all of them so I can remember any trace of you that remains; wondering when I’ll have showered enough to no longer feel your fingerprints […]

Confessions to my Therapist: A Real Conversation

“I did something stupid. Again.” “Tell me.” “I spent the weekend, well, twenty-four hours, with this man.” “Why?” “At first, it was a way to get over that last douchebag.” “So, it didn’t stay that way?” “No. It was…different.” “How so?” “It was more. It was like I suddenly knew how it should have been […]