Existing

The stars keep blinking out, shuddering and shuttering in their wounded worlds, wrapping unseen landscapes in black, shimmering once and exploding into a nothing so vast it exists only in not existing. Each breath folds against the next and small pieces fracture into atoms, particles of sadness and blackness and it runs into floors, full […]

Crisis

Suffer, bleed, weep until sanity seems distant, fractured, beyond. Suffer, scream until it’s over, until I am no more. Arrows, wooden stakes made from splintered words, they gouge out my heart in inch-sized pieces until I am only shadows, miniature versions of those pictures you have in your room, hidden in boxes behind walls of […]

Yes

Air, so much air, and breathing, the weight vanishing, its suddenness– a gasp, bright, ferocious, the freedom and peace, they descend, hover, collide, sweep me in blooms of oceans and vast forests of beautiful echoes. One word, no three, or four, but they released me, pegged me, folded me until I floated. Yes. I breathed […]

Dancing: A Conversation in My Head 

“I love this song.” “It’s a good one.” “You should dance with me.” “That’s not what we do.” “I know. But, so what?” “It might change things for you in ways that are dangerous.” “I know, but anything with you is.” “True. But you know my thoughts on us moving past our agreed upon relationship.” […]

Wanted: Guide to Life 

I need the instructions, a book to tell me what to do. Some sort of manual with directions not so obscure as religion and its insistence on faith. I don’t do faith. Life has taught me better. But a textbook would be nice, something with lessons and practical applications. Because I can’t see straight and […]

No. More.

A cavern. No. Bigger. A canyon cracked its way through my chest, and it cut my heart in half. Or maybe smaller. It bulldozed, slaughtered my heart, crumbled it into a million particles, and it drug them across my body and out into the air. Now I am holes. No. Emptier. Black holes of forgotten […]